The Fight to regain my footing

June 15, 2011

The fight to regain my footing

For a few weeks now it seem that my normal pattern of living  is no longer a  pattern.

Wake up, write in the journal, which really is a prayer book.Look up the days homily and read  Scriptures and try to  pray the Rosary, While praying the Rosary, walk the treadmill . It usually would be almost a mile by the time the whole Rosary was completed . The Children would show up and much of my task than where limited to  house work and teaching the kids through playing or instruction, In no time it was the end of the day and time for sleep and the beginning or the next days cycle.

Not so anymore, rise late, grouble for coffee. if remembered enter a prayer in journal ,no walk on the treadmill, stuff hangs and covers it. Rosary if started is never made past second mystery before interrupted by kids or sleep returns without warning. A most annoying situation

What is noticed, I reach for the keyboard not to contribute to my blog or check on the news, It is Facebook that is center of the screen. Search to see who has something to say, who acknowledges something that was posted , who is there or not there. it consumes the morning . It taken the prayers from my lips,and given me an attitude that spills over on the kids. Leave me alone, can’t you see i am doing something. It consumes them as well.

I not going to quit Facebook cause it has a grip on  my day, no that not solving the problem at all. I going to find my footing and get back into the groove that I was in. Control the day and accept that patterns are just patterns and the stitches sometimes have to be re-stitched. Facebook is going to help me as well , those that care will understand and be there when I show and when I not they will know , a pattern is in reconstruction.


One thought on “The Fight to regain my footing

  1. I think it is good that you are aware of this and will make the changes necessary so that facebook is helpful and not hurtful in your life. Much love Gene! Wishing you the best every day! xoxo

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